Where can i find happiness?

I've always been asking myself where and when can i find happiness. I'm trying to recall when is the moment when i'm the happiest and i should say around the age of 17-21 ? when i still have my wonderful friends and when i had a bf , in our honeymoons...every thing is just so right and that's the happiest i can remember.

Certainly, i can never find back that kinda happiness again. I had so called lost my friends and perhaps love... there are some things that keep going through my mind and no one knows abt it. Some things that i feel hurt about but no one knows..there's no point telling or wadever, accept it and regret. Blame no one but myself..

I really wants and wish to be alone at times, wish that i should live by my own but i know i'm not that independant. I still want my friends, love, care, hugs, kisses, want to get married and have kids..but....the future ahead of me seems so so invisibe.

How can i be so unhappy at this age of 24...i should be a happy lady. I tell myself, no matter if i lost that friendship, lost that love, definitely it hurts but i gotta be brave and live with it. Isn't this what i've been going through...

Zoo

Because i'm off and had no plans yet so i got time to blog. We went to zoo on wednesday and the zoo really changed alot! The tickets are rather expensive oh~ $18 for adult. I still thought will we get discount if we flashed our pink IC. haha~

Our legs start to ache till the end ...no wonder at the entrance there's this kenko wellness fish spa to ease visitors pain.. However, honestly i feel our zoo is rather 'small' and ' boring' maybe becos most animals are sleeping or maybe we went on a weekday so no much activities. But what makes me proud is our animal shows =)

They are really lovely otters

I'm craving for crabs especially the ones at AMK and also craving to sing!!!

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I didnt forget about my blog, i was just damn lazy and tired to blog..and i dunno where shall i start too. Anyway Taiwan trip was wonderful..really i swear i'll want to go again!! maybe soon with my friends! I miss the ah zhong meesua, miss the puppies and kittens at shilin and the shopping!!

Work sucks and begin to suck even more....I really cant wait to find new job but offer not opened yet~

Work and life is meaningless to me sometimes. Everyday is just waiting for my offdays and payday. And there goes 1 month...talking abt this, cant wait for my off this coming tue. Was planning to go the zoo and wanted to apply free zoo pass under my company but was so busy to do abt it and eventually i guess i'll just pay for it. Anyway is rather troublesome for i need to collect the pass on the day b4 zoo and gotta return back on that same day! forget abt it then~

There are many things i want to go and get things done but again nothing is done =/

Anyway everything just sucks big time!! Just hate it. I dunno who and what i'm living for too........ i dunno will i, can i find happiness in my future....? or maybe i'm destined to have a unhappy, unsatisfied hard life ?

Welcome to taiwan

I'm just so excited =) I've not pack anything yet, will be going yanzi concert tomorrow night. Have never heard her sing live but know she will be good. I didn't buy the tickets but invitation =) So come back sure late alrdy guess will do the packing tmr.
Will be leaving on sunday morning.. Shall update after my trip ..wooHooo~~~

oh yes..

Why is it everytime when u're going holiday this week, it always seems the days are so slooow...
Anyway so happy and excited..Will be going for stefanie's sun concert on sat and depart on sunday =)

I guess i'm sure gonna be broke and fat in taiwan. I've alrdy a list of their beauty products in hand..oh no....
I'm gonna force myself to be more hardworking in pampering myself as in the body scrubs, masks and wadever cremes that i bought looong time ago had all gone to waste and dust collecting alrdy.
So i must make an effort to force myself to be =)

Taiwan~~~~~

july

i cant wait for july!! I'm planning for taiwan and i then realise taipei itself is soooo bigg alrdy and i think i will most probably put on another few KGs when i come back! Just tooo many food!! I also realise not easy to plan itinery. Anyway, at least communication wise is not a barrier so not so fearful.

ooohhhh i cant wait! cant wait....!! taiwan.......!!!!

Finally!

I'm so damn happy i passed my BCP!!!! After the 2nd attempt! I'll definitely curse n swear if i fail becos i spend 2days of my off days just to study that whole damn book at home!! heng~~
Dar came back from KL-BKK over my offdays and he's staying over at my hse now as his waiting in the midst of his bedok flat.
And i was very happy and surprised he really bought me the longchamp bag! Story goes like this: He knows i wanted to get a longchamp bag and he called me in bkk saying he saw this bag very nice but rather expensive abt $300+ but i told him too expensive as i thought i only wanted the normal plain colour design Le Pliage which is abt $100+, but i said i dun mind if he wants buy for me too. muhaha~~ i was still thinkin of getting the pink or dark brown colour. Then he msg me the next day says he go back see but no more stock. Expected answer from him anyway i expected he wont buy becos he dun invest in me this way rather. He rathers invest bringing me for good food and holidays. Anyway he's always nagging saying i have so many bags..
And then, he came to my house with it! ahah really happy and surprise lor~ despite his naggings,but he still soft heart. kekeke..love ya~i like it =p

He's off to KL-TPE again~ most probably i'll be gg taiwan in july. i hope jack is back in taiwan.