Happy

Finally............finally..........i am happy and excited but yet worrying and mixed feelings. I finally had good news from HR that i pass my medical. I can finally go pursue my dreams inthe air =)

I was damn worried these few days till i have no appitite to eat becos i actually went for the first medical and they say i need to go back for 2nd review xray and i will need to bear the cost. I paid $160 for the xray and since then it has kept me worrying becos firstly i have tendered long before which means if i fail, i will be tender without a job and also means gotta give up my dream forever..... it was rather a hard time for me.

Thank god and thanks to all my friends becos they are the ones who make my blessings come true = ) I really appreciate this opportunity although i know i heard alot alot negative things abt this company which i somehow can picture it alrdy but i tel myself " Since that someone has tried it and doesnt like it , but why cant i deserve that chance and who knows i may not like it as well OR i might like it and hence excel in it? "
YoU NeVER tRY YOU NevER kNOW....right?

so i'm very happy for my friends and colleagues who are so happy and give me all their blessings =) and for those who wants to keep on pollute my mind, pls don't harm me anymore..Its not that i hate you BUT i know what i'm doing and whatever i do i will accept the consequences.

Looking forward to the hectic training in nov. I will do my best = ) I just can't wait.....

Troubled

I have tendered my resignation and my last day will be on NOV 6th. I was still worrying before the night how to go about approaching my manager and i went very early to office that day to hand her the letter. HOwever, i shouldnt have been so stressed up before night as she already knows about it and kinda take it so easy...I cant believe i'm leaving too but at the same time, I'm so worried and troubled over my medical checkup...most probably receiving results these 2 days...I got a very strong feeling i must be prepared to get rejected by them. I'm praying hard everyday and i know my friends also prayed for me =) thank you.. i hope to give all of u good news!! =)

Got an sms from my long long friend of 11yrs? She's getting married!!!! I cant believe!!! I forced her to tell me it's a sms joke. hahaha...anyway happy and congrats to her.. yes i'm the only one left hanging on the shelf among all those 'bitches' and i know they gonna' nag' and say those things over n over again -_-"" i'll shut my ears on that day.. hahah...

*PRAYING HARD**** GOD BLESS ME.. I WILL BE GOOD.

Octo

It's finally October.. it seems like i'm jobless now because i totally not in the mood to go back my work anymore and also i've been off since tuesday till sunday.. I have went for a better job offer and still waiting for the results.. Hopefully it will be good news and thereafter shall prepare my resignation letter.

Today was brother Raymond's wedding and pics are not uploaded yet. As usual, my dearest aunts and uncles like 'pointed' at me saying when is my turn...next year? -_-"" because i'm next elder in the family left unmarried to them.. Marriage is commitment and my views towards marriage is 'scary' and phobia. I have no faith in marriage....maybe...... YET? i duno...So stop asking me when i'm getting married la....pls.......
Our table is the noisest because of my 2 funny uncle and aunt. We kept laughing and laughing like no one business with my uncle's lame jokes.. haha..
I love them =) I'm glad i have such a family but if only grandma is around with us =( i miss her...

Shall upload the pics soon..

Sickening

Work really is so sickening.. sometimes i really 'hate' facing customers but not many a day that we'll face nasty ones. But just that when u met 1, they really kill my whole of that day!!!
Why are some human beings so idiotic? How are they brought up or why must they behave in this way ? I really dont get it because i'm not one =)

And sometimes public transport and the traffic really gets on my nerves just like today we actually end work very early today for the first time at 6pm and i actually had an appointment at 8pm with Honeypot. I was thinking how can i pass my 2hrs and i knw i cannot spend 2hrs shopping in orchard especially alone! Many sinful acts will happen ;p Just as i was thinking, my colleague dated me for dinner, thinking leaving at 7pm should be more than enough and i can pass by isetan scotts to grab my loosepowder too.
Bloodyhell the traffic was so jam for the first time i ever seen! And i waited but that damn bus almost 20mins and i was running out of time thinkin i'll be late and will they cancel my appt as 8pm was the last appt. Anyway no vacant cabs to be seen too!

I reached abt 5mins later and it was my first time to honeypot @ pacific plaza. I was so amazed by the outlook of the shop, it was my favourite all pinky =) the door was the tricky one that i got me thinking how should i open it, haha.. When stepped in, the shop also has a very nice kinda cherry or rose smell. The lady who served me was rather chatty. She then recommend me aftercare products and guess right , there goes my account balance again =( If i say i buy because of the packaging becos its pink, will anyone smack me? =p

Hope the products works well.

The scrub and body spray

See, even the receipt is so sweet =) Never seen a receipt that's got my name on it.

Check their website for more info : www.honeypot.com.sg

PS: I'm kinda excited as i'm finally getting out of my 4-wall to head for the club tmr!!! I hope i still can shake, haha.....

愛...

愛上一个人..........如此的甜蜜卻又讓人受傷害

放棄一个人..........如此的難過卻又讓人心碎


珍惜身旁的每一个人,不要等到失去了

才瞭解到遺憾.和後悔是如此的痛苦....




因為愛你.所以放手還你自由

因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾

因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過

因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開



如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?

如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?

是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?

是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?

Where can i find happiness?

I've always been asking myself where and when can i find happiness. I'm trying to recall when is the moment when i'm the happiest and i should say around the age of 17-21 ? when i still have my wonderful friends and when i had a bf , in our honeymoons...every thing is just so right and that's the happiest i can remember.

Certainly, i can never find back that kinda happiness again. I had so called lost my friends and perhaps love... there are some things that keep going through my mind and no one knows abt it. Some things that i feel hurt about but no one knows..there's no point telling or wadever, accept it and regret. Blame no one but myself..

I really wants and wish to be alone at times, wish that i should live by my own but i know i'm not that independant. I still want my friends, love, care, hugs, kisses, want to get married and have kids..but....the future ahead of me seems so so invisibe.

How can i be so unhappy at this age of 24...i should be a happy lady. I tell myself, no matter if i lost that friendship, lost that love, definitely it hurts but i gotta be brave and live with it. Isn't this what i've been going through...

Zoo

Because i'm off and had no plans yet so i got time to blog. We went to zoo on wednesday and the zoo really changed alot! The tickets are rather expensive oh~ $18 for adult. I still thought will we get discount if we flashed our pink IC. haha~

Our legs start to ache till the end ...no wonder at the entrance there's this kenko wellness fish spa to ease visitors pain.. However, honestly i feel our zoo is rather 'small' and ' boring' maybe becos most animals are sleeping or maybe we went on a weekday so no much activities. But what makes me proud is our animal shows =)

They are really lovely otters

I'm craving for crabs especially the ones at AMK and also craving to sing!!!